Thursday, August 21, 2014

Five Minute Friday - Change

Linking up with Five Minute Friday tonight. The rules are simple. Free write for five minutes on the topic given (this week is "change.") No editing, over-thinking, worrying about grammar, etc. Just writing. And linking up here. Then comment on the person's post that is ahead of yours.

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"The more things change, the more they stay the same."

This is my fifth year being a stay-at-home mom, and as much as I have been thankful for it and loved it, I can honestly say that the last couple of weeks of being stay-at-home-mom-and-teacher-again have revived my weary heart. The worst thing (for me) of being a stay-at-home mom is never feeling like I was accomplishing anything.  Laundry. Dishes, Meals. Vacuum. Groceries. Repeat. Nothing ever felt done, no matter how many checklists and schedules I tried. But the last couple of weeks I feel like I have accomplished things. I planned lessons. I taught. I created. I saw lightbulb moments. I brainstormed with friends making their own curriculum decisions. I have felt completely in my element again, and it is a wonderful gift.


It is not easy. In two weeks of school there have been two days when I have very much thought, "I have made the wrong decision." But at the end of the day, I am tired, a very good tired.  That back-to-school-tired I have missed so much the last few years.

Some people connect with God when they run or when they write or when they paint.  But I have found a connection I had been missing since I left the classroom. I love to teach. And though my classroom is now a kitchen table and a sofa, things really haven't changed. I love being a mom, and I love being a teacher. (And I love being in charge of all the things! .... But that is a post for another day!)

Stop.

10 comments:

  1. I love you, Amanda, and I agree: you seem to be in your element, right now. Thankful we're on this journey together. As always, so impressed that you can do the FMF thing!

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    1. Thank you, Brandee! It's been awhile. I have other things I want to write, but can't get it together. Knowing I just have to do five minutes on one word - while sometimes feels constrictive - is actually freeing me a bit right now. Just read your old letter just now. Love it, especially from "Or don't change a dad-burned thing" on -because that is the truth. (I need to look for my self letters on here - it's therapeutic.)

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  2. Good luck homeschooling this year! You "sound" energized in your writing.

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  3. sometimes the repetitiveness wears on me - just like you described. but sometimes, there's great peace and joy in doing the dishes and finishing them for that period in time... and I've never yet had one of the dishes argue back at me while I was washing it!

    thankful you are in such a good place right now. may God preserve that for you over the next months of this school year.

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    1. Thank you! While scrubbing my dishes tonight I thought of your comment - and I had peace (and gratitude) knowing that these dishes were dirty because we had food to eat. A blessing indeed.

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  4. Glad things are going well, Amanda! I hadn't been on your blog in ages and got caught up tonight. All the best to you with the homeschooling your lil' man.

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    1. Thank you for stopping by and commenting, Heather. I hope you are doing well. It sounds like you have found what you are passionate about with design - which is awesome!

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  5. Aw, it seems like this will be a precious time with your little one. Glad you are in your element again!

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    1. Thank you! It is a good place to be in this season.

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