My self-control goes out the window when I lack sleep. After a few disciplined days of eating, today all I can think about are convenience foods and carbohydrates. A lot of people I know are doing the Daniel Fast right now, and all I can think is, Well, Daniel wasn't a mommy to two little boys who have caught every germ under the sun since Halloween. I'm quite spiritual, aren't I?
I'm realizing I can't do anything by will-power alone. When it comes down to it, each decision I make, big or small, can only really happen by the grace of God. This grace, that according to Piper is not just for pardon but for power, is enough to see me through the days after the sleepless nights.
My mind is a jumbled mess today, and all I want to do is sit on the couch in my never-been-to-yoga pants, drink coffee, and enjoy watching my sweet (but under the weather) kids play. There is grace enough to do just that today. The priority is to just be. And so I am.