Wednesday, August 15, 2012

more thoughts on truth

I have no words.
I thought my heart would be heavier, but there is overwhelming peace.
When you do the right thing, when you ask someone to tell the truth
and he refuses,
he says, "It's not my job."
his character is revealed.

When is it not our job to tell the truth?
When is it not our duty - no, our honor, to defend our children?

So boundaries are reiterated.

Boundaries are not bitterness.
Boundaries are not unforgiveness.
Boundaries are wisdom.

My heart is valuable and precious and vulnerable.
My childrens' hearts are valuable and precious and vulnerable.

I thought things had changed.
Three years of me rebuilding relationships and trust
shattered
because of pride and lies.
A mess that didn't have to be.

But character is who you are in the dark.
And eventually light shines in the darkness.
You are given the choice - do the right thing.
Tell the truth. The truth will set you free.

But instead lies poured out.
To cover up other lies, old and new.
Second verse same as the first.

I will not live in the bondage of lies.
I will not put my children at unnecessary risk.

I will walk in truth. I will walk in peace. I will walk with hope. I will walk with integrity.

3 comments:

  1. I am sorry you have been abandoned again. I'm sorry they have pulled the wool over other family members' eyes and they are believed. They rush to judgment on you and in the same breath ask you not to judge. Irony in it's truest form. Also ironic that they all attend organized religious meetings on a weekly basis, but do not practice what they hear. I'm sorry I encouraged you to work towards reconciliation since it lead to more anguish for you. I love you unconditionally!!!

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    1. You did what you thought was right. You helped try to reconcile a relationship. I will never be sorry for that - and neither should you be. We were both fooled.
      I slept incredibly well last night. I woke up this morning with hope and strength. I am blessed by so many other people. I will not let this destroy all of the other things God is doing in my life.

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  2. Wow. This really touched my heart. I don't know your situation, but I can empathize with what you're working through and feeling. I pray God blesses your heart and your life with peace and His healing!

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