Friday, May 11, 2012

five minute friday - identity



Joining with The Gypsy Mama's group to write without editing for five minutes on this week's topic - identity.

At thirty-one, I thought I would have figured out my identity by now.  Instead, it seems cloudier than ever before.

At six, I was the smart girl who got picked first for math board races.
At eleven, I was the slow girl who got picked last for kickball.
At fourteen, I wore my Looney Toons Sweatshirt and black stretch pants to middle school, as did most of my friends.
I thought I would save the world, somehow, someway, when I was sixteen going on seventeen.
As a freshmen in college I thought of myself as the girl who STILL hadn't been kissed.
When I was twenty-two, I felt brave and adventurous, moving across the country to a new place, a new job, all by myself.
I got married at just barely twenty-four, to the "man from the internet."
Throughout my twenties I was a teacher.
And now I am mommy.

But what else am I?

On one hand I am terrified of labels, but on the other hand I feel like I can't avoid them - Not too conservative, but definitely not liberal. Multidenominational, though currently landing somewhere in pentecostalism.  An egalitarian who from the outside appears to live the complementarian lifestyle. Semi-feminist who is tired of all the angry women out there.

What does all of this even mean?

It means it doesn't really matter what I am labeled. Many of them will come and go with seasons and phases. But who I am at the core - I hope I am kind and strong, patient and loyal, resilient and compassionate. That's who I want to be.

(Took about two extra minutes this week - hope that is okay!)

4 comments:

  1. Go check out my blog! A shout out for you!!!

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  2. Seasons and phases indeed! Labels always shift and evolve...I think it proves we are growing though????
    Thanks for the visit! Love your place whenever I stop by!!!

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  3. Great post! Very thought-provoking and introspective! I always love reading your blog. You are so deep! :) It would be fun to meet someday and see if we hit it off as well in person as we do through our blogger worlds! :) Hope you have a lovely day today, and I agree with Melissa who commented above -- labels do shift and evolve, it seems, our entire lives! Been there, done that, will do it again no doubt! :) - Rachel

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  4. finally reading some Five Minute Friday's...

    glad you took 2 extra minutes because I loved your ending!
    "I hope I am kind and strong, patient and loyal, resilient and compassionate. That's who I want to be."

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