"Jesus will be glorified with your struggling relationship..."
Then the speaker followed this statement with a specific struggling relationship of mine.
Almost three days later and the words still play over and over in my head. I know this, I believe this, I cling to this, but I want to know how. How can He be glorified? I want that, but I would love some more specifics. A checklist. A how-to. Something. Instead, I take my next step, and I wait. I wait without any guarantees of a happy ending.
"i think waiting is believing. i can say i believe, but many times, it's not what i say but what i do after i say it. " ~emily wierenga
My heart is heavy because of broken trust. I want to make things work with people, but boundaries, grace, accountability and
I wait some more. I do not make rash decisions, but my guard is up. It has to be for it is not only my heart that needs protecting, but also the hearts of two little boys.
"God's purpose will always determine His timing. ... God will not waste your time. " ~Pastor Jordan
God will not waste this experience, just as He has not wasted any other heartbreak in previous seasons. Will I trust Him with this pain? With these questions? With His purposes?
I remember I am covered. Even more than I want to cover and protect my children, the Father wants to cover me. And He will. That fact is enough in this moment. I am covered.
*This is not about The Hubs and I, lest anyone worry about our marriage. This reflection was prompted by some current life situations and a sermon series "Covered" at the 20twenty community.