joining with Amber and others for a series called the marriage letters
I think we expected to change the world, didn't we? We envisioned Good Will Hunting and Dangerous Minds moments in our careers. Instead I respond to the, "Do you think you will go back to teaching?" question I get with, "I don't know. Probably not." And you are pursuing a different career.
This isn't our parents or grandparents world, is it? In generations before, people had one job for life and women could stay at home because they wanted to without the outside pressures of double-incomes and "wasting their degrees." Of course I'm idealizing the past. We are blessed to have so many options in our day, but I know we have both had days, months, seasons when we have thought, "Isn't there more to all of this than.... this?"
You know Pastor Jordan's sermon about relationships and finding fulfillment in the Living Water instead of in other people? I think that applies to us in an additional way. We keep thinking, "When we finally do _____" or "When we finally have met _______ (insert goal/dream/expectation)" or "When we make x-amount of money, ________." But what we really need is Living Water every day in order to be the best at our jobs as we can be. Our situation in life may not fulfill us, but He will.
I don't know exactly what I am trying to say to you here. It isn't pretty or eloquent or profound. I think I just want to remind you that we are more than our jobs. You are more than a counselor. I am more than a stay-at-home-mom/former-teacher. We have a purpose in this confusing season of waiting and wrestling with God, a purpose beyond referrals and dead-beat-parents to counsel, a purpose beyond diapers and overdue library books to return. God sees us. He knows our desires and He knows the plans He has for us. Hang on, my love. Keep being faithful in these day to day things. Abba God sees you, and I have faith that not only does He have something great for our future, but that He is doing something great in us right now, even in the mundane of making ends meet.