"When God closes a door, He opens a window."
We hear that one a lot. Is it even in the Bible? I guess I should look it up, but I am too lazy, and I don't think that it is. And it doesn't feel true for us lately. Doors, windows, laundry chutes, they all seem shut.
We pray for God's will. "Lord, open the right doors. Close the door if you don't want us to go through it." Yet deep down many times we really just want the door to budge a little bit so we can at least squeeze through.
There has been no squeezing through here.
Door after door has shut. So we pray now for new ones, old ones, any ones. We seek, we knock. And we have become empty. Empty of resources, finances, energy, enthusiasm, faith, hope, strength and ultimately of ourselves.
Perhaps it is the Christmas season, though I think I began realizing it sometime between Halloween and Thanksgiving. My cup was completely empty, but I handed it over anyway, and then He began to pour something into it. New (and renewed) relationships. New opportunities and connections. New places to serve. New people coming alongside to encourage us and some old ones as well. New attitudes, new hope, new mercies every morning.
Contentment is a struggle of mine. It always has been, so I find it a little bit funny that at the time in my adult life when I have had the least amount of things, the least amount to fall back on, I have been give the most in areas that don't fit on a spreadsheet or a resume.
Yes, in my emptiness I am being blessed with the full life.
899. cleansing tears off and on all Sunday morning
900. one running car
901. small group game night
902. new friends who love my kids and don't mind our small house on the northside
903. a God who doesn't mind me drinking coffee during announcements
904. Sunday naps for all four of us
905. celebrating one year of Bugaboo
906. an acquaintance's miracle preemie gaining a pound this month- pray for Baby E. to get stronger
907. daily grasping that Jesus came to serve, not to be served, and what that should mean for me
908. the power of grace
909. the gift of obedience
910. progressive dinner
911. friends who hug - forgot how important touch is beyond the family unit
912. quality Christmas music
913. God with us, every day, every moment