The last two evenings I have been in Mark 4. This chapter includes the parable of the seeds - the ones being picked up, not growing, attacked by thorns, and growing a harvest. If you grew up going to Sunday school for any portion of your childhood, you most likely know the story by heart. I did.
But I've been doing the Inductive Bible Study method lately, and I love it because it is making me slooooowwwww down. And in the slowing my eyes/heart/mind kept being drawn back to verses 18-19.
And others are the ones on whom seed was sown among the thorns; these are the ones who have heard the word, but the worries of the world, and the deceitfulness of riches, and the desires for other things enter in and choke the word, and it becomes unfruitful.
Last night a thought popped in my head when I read the verses, but I pushed it down. However, I couldn't escape an ah-ha moment tonight. My worries, insecurities, jealousies,desires for more, etc. are choking the Truth out of me. Without the dependence on Truth, I am lacking fruit both in my life and the ability to help others live a fruitful life.
And if this wasn't ah-ha enough, I remembered that a week or so ago I wrote down Gal. 5:22-25 on a card. The first part is the nicey-nice stuff about love, joy, peace, etc. But the second half is the hard stuff - the crucifying self because we belong to Christ, the Truth that if we "live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit." That's hard stuff, but powerful.
I feel like whining - the easy life seems so much, well easier. But I have to keep in mind I am not alone on this path. Anyone else out there feel like sometimes life tries to choke the Truth out of them? How do you deal? (Please no cookie-cutter answers.) A friend reminded me today to live like I am forgiven. What does that look like for you all?
There is strength in encouraging one another and walking together, right? Feel free to be real here. Some days are great for me, but some days I want to put about a half-a-dozen pumpkin spice lattes and a pair of new boots on a credit card just to make myself "feel" better, and since I am too practical to do that I feel doubly-frustrated. Anyone? Buhler? Buhler?