Joining with The Gypsy Mama for Five Minute Friday - writing for five minutes on a given topic without editing. Five minutes only. Today's topic is loss.
The first thing that comes to mind with the word loss is death - loss of a baby, a grandfather, childhood friends.
But right behind it today comes thoughts of lost relationships. People who have left, disappointed, abandoned, rejected, betrayed. This is hard loss because I do not understand disloyalty. I do not understand the doing what feels better or convenient or easy instead of the doing of what is right. Most my losses in relationships have happened because of the "head in the sand like an ostrich" way of life. Refusal to confront. Refusal to repent. Refusal to reconcile.
It is hard to mourn these losses like mourning a death. A death is awful, tragic, and final. The brokenness of the other type is confusing and frustrating and without closure.
And I find myself even at a loss for words now.