Tuesday, July 19, 2011

366 months


This is me.  Halfway done with my thirtieth year. I know you all were hoping it would be a picture of me on the oversized chair with a stuffed animal, but this self-portrait from PhotoBooth is as good as it gets.

I had a conversation with The Hubs a week or so ago, about how I wish I had done more in my twenties.  What exactly?  I am not sure. I have degrees. I traveled to a few countries. I moved out to a random place in this country all by myself.  I married a guy I met online who lived halfway around the world when I "met" him.

 I had two babies.  Sounds productive and reproductive and adventurous. But sometimes I think I may not have lived that decade to the fullest. I'm not sure.

Now six months into being three decades old, I am antsy. Maybe it is the phase of life I am in. I don't want a "career" change - I love what I do each day (most days). But I want to be a part of something bigger than myself. I want to make a difference. And I want to be good at everything.

BUT
I can't be good at everything.  So I need to simplify and focus on what is best for me. For my family. For my goals.

The sewing machine thing - turned out to not be my thing. I wanted it to be my thing. Very much. Thankfully I have a mama who can sew anything, so I think I will be sending her my to-do list. (And this one, too.)

So what ARE my things?
I had a bullet list, but it didn't seem quite right.  My "things" aren't a check off list, but rather concentric rings of who I am/want to be.

Stay tuned...the wandering is going to get even better around here.

3 comments:

  1. Proud of you for who you are and who you don't pretend to be. You are AMAZING!

    xoxo,
    Cousin Michelle

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  2. Hmmm....I will have to stay tuned. I am intrigued. (and I do think you should have taken your picture in the Bear Chair).

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