- I am loving the study on Paul I am a part of. At first I wasn't so sure, but the last several weeks have been very good. I like seeing him in new ways - a little more human (even post-conversion) and not so-holier-than-thou. He comes across as harsh and sarcastic sometimes, especially when his passion for something is really vivid. Oh, how I relate to this!
- There was a discussion on spiritual gifts on the Beth Moore video on this study. She mentioned about operating outside of the Spirit in the flesh or counterfeit. For example giving to be noticed, leading to manipulate, serving to get brownie points, etc. A couple of interesting ones she mentioned happened to be two of my gifts - discernment (and how outside of the Spirit that can be judgmentalness and criticism -ouch!) and mercy (excusing every kind of sin without holding people accountable and pointing out their need for forgiveness). It gave me a lot to think about, especially how looking at this idea in terms of my other gift - exhortation - and I can think of a couple examples looking back how I let my flesh take over instead of being in step with the Spirit. Now that I know better, by the grace of God I will do better.
- I had a weird dream (if you can call it a dream when you aren't really in a deep sleep) the other night. Bubby had woken up and fussed a couple of mintues, and fell back asleep, but I was not able to (this is not the dream, by the way). So for almost two hours I lie in bed, uncomfortable and having every annoying worry-thought fill my head. I kept trying to pray it through and unburden myself because seriously, what can I do at 4 AM to solve any problem? Anyhoo - as I was falling asleep, my dream (vision? I hate to say that because that sounds too mystical for what it was) was standing on an elevator with The Hubs. The door was open, and we knew we either had to push a button and go somewhere or get off. I remember saying, "What do we do? We can't just stay here not going anywhere." Or maybe he said one of those phrases. It sounds like a very simple dream, but it was very vivid - and it seemed like we just stood in that elevator, not getting off and not going anywhere for a long time. And then I think I woke up. Or the dream ended. Any interpretations out there?
- And not so spiritual, but I think I have a book or at least a portion of a book on my heart to write. I have always wanted to write a book, but never found the right "thing," but this time this idea (non-fiction by the way) keeps running through my head. The idea is still in the fuzzy phase, and I have no idea what I am doing or how to do it, but I am just feeling this compelling desire (need) to get it started. Prayer for this endeavor would be much appreciated.
Friday, October 22, 2010
just a few "spiritual" thoughts
I just wanted to jot these down, more for my own interest/record keeping I think than anything else.