I do wish I could do yesterday over. I lacked patience and kindness. I was not content, and I found myself making mental lists of all that I lacked both materially, emotionally, and spiritually. And while I knew in my heart it was wrong to wallow there, I staked a claim and set up camp, and continued to taking inventory of what was missing. By doing so, I missed the opportunity to be an asset to someone, I robbed myself of joyful moments with my husband before he headed back home, and I didn't even really like being around myself.
So while I cannot do yesterday over, I am thankful for the grace that is today. The mercies that came this morning as I rocked Buddy back to sleep at 5 AM, as forgiveness streamed in like the morning sunlight, as I helped the baby wave good-bye to his da-da for a week, as I sit in the stillness of this quiet moment.
"So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it." Col. 3:12-14 MSG