...I sing out a love song to Jesus."
Yesterday and today my mom has been out of the house in the afternoon, and it gives me a trial run at being alone all day with the baby for when she leaves next week. (Scary thought! She has been such a help with the baby and laundry - which has increased by 500%.)
I have found my favorite time with Buddy. He is fed and snuggly, and I am trying to burp him (which is quite the process). I have realized that as I am burping him I end up eventually burping to a beat which means I must sing. I start off with the upbeat songs to match my "burp beat" and then slow it down as he gets sleepy. It is the most amazing praise and worship time I have ever had - just me and my boy in the living room singing any song that pops in my head, mostly hymns instead of newer songs.
One song has been sort of my anthem the last year. It was in my head all through my miscarriage ordeal, then through this pregnancy, and during our NICU days. It has been a struggle to trust God some days these last months, but He has not and does not give up on me. He has still been there even as I have yelled and cried and barely hung on some moments. I am so thankful that even still when I mess up and say and do the wrong thing, He will never leave me or forsake me.
’Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to take Him at His Word;
Just to rest upon His promise,
And to know, “Thus saith the Lord!”
I’m so glad I learned to trust Thee,
Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend;
And I know that Thou art with me,
Wilt be with me to the end.
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er;
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust Him more!